Eremos hill -
this is where i prayed for intentions today, the place where Jesus went to pray before He called the twelve, where He would go to pray through the night. particularly praying for each person's call and vocation, that they might know the Lord's tender love for them, personally.
Mount of Beattitudes -
free for the day to go where we will, to contemplate Jesus' coming among us, to go in prayer wherever He takes us. i'm sitting 'tween the roots of a tree on the top of the mount like Merry and Pippen in Fanghorn Forest. we'll see if it tries to swallow me up. there is a sweet smelling aroma up here.
Eremos cave -
my prayer led through different things i remember about coming to the Lord and discerning my vocation. i remember running on the pews during a daily Mass with Grandma Frey and Jacinta (i think i got in trouble for that), first confession and communion with Mrs. Burger and Fr. Murphy. Jim Bellinger asking me to to serve, David Rummell training Scott and me. Rosemarie Baretto and Louis Thoma always encouraging us after Mass. retreats in 8th grade, felling called to more. my family gatherings, especially Easter and Christmas. internship year, Deacon Francis, Christina and Meagan. the dub, reach and Dan. Fr. Cihak: "the same qualities that make a good husband and father make a good priest". Amanda Sharer: "i realized i can't say to God i give You my whole heart and hold something back" Surrender. learning to pray in the Chapel. Fr. Auve helping me in discernment. every priest i knew was a good priest (Fr. Paul). Fr. Kelly: "that's interesting". support at St. V's. spiritual directors and confessors. Lourdes, whole heart to Jesus.
i have nothing particular i can or have offered You. its just that You always bless me, ever since i can remember, with more than i ask. You always prepare me for the next step. You give me good friends and strong support, You give me the desire to want to give You all.
Sea of Galilee -
following Jesus, praying, and being His friend is not some taxing thing that takes all your energy and you can't wait for a pause so you can rest and have some time to yourself to do what you want. No, it is like this place, it is ordinary. You are just there, and He is too. Jesus is God with us in the ordinary moment of our day. to follow Him means to be present in those moments. He speaks our language so we can understand that God is not far off but with us now. He worked not so much from event to event where everyone came in a big crowd. Rather He was just going about His day being present to us and events happened along the way. feeding the 5000, healing the leper or paralytic, the woman with the hemmorage or the sermon on the mount-- they kinda just happened when the people came with expectant Faith. He did so many ordinary things with the apostles that they didn't always get it or notice the significance of His presence among us, but when they looked back it was all amazing.
gifts -
a few of us were sneaky and got gifts for our roomates to surpirse them on Christmas morning. it was a fun an giddy time being so cleverly sneaky. is this what it is like for You to give gifts to us--just waiting for us to realize and receive Your gifts that You desire to give us? do You get excited to see our reaction? What is it like when You are so happy to give the gift of Yourself to us and we-i put You off or am not a good receiver of the gift? Mary, pray that we might receive well like you did, especially tonight. it is special to give something to someone because you want to, when you put your own thought, care and love into it. it is great not to be selfish.
my roomate: "i have never not known that i wanted to be a priest" wow.
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